Excruciating Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches
It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain behind one eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing texts propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.
National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.
But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a